Well I’ve been here for a long time. Still so much to say, yet so little to convey. My life has revolved around the main issue of suffering, bolstered by the various subthemes of time, religion, freedom, and thought. There’s not that much to convey anymore. I have many new stories to tell, but these stories get boring quickly. Nobody wants to hear me rant and rant about my suffering forever. So, coupled with the fact that I am increasingly facing writer’s block and a lack of motivation, I’ve decided that this may be my last public post. Sorry to those who are sick of me talking about suffering, and thanks to those who kept reading. I might move, or continue to write about random things. The future, as much as I don’t want it to be, is undecided.
The quote on the top of my blog is taken from Forrest Gump, and I like it exactly through Forrest’s matter-of-fact, clean, unedited truth. Life’s like that. You sometimes control it, and sometimes you don’t. I’m born to suffer. We’re all born to suffer – in varying degrees. My suffering is different from yours, and that’s because of fate, which I believe is the karmic account. I can choose what I do, but I can’t choose who I am. That’s what I’ve tried to stress to myself. I’m Thai – sometimes proud and sometimes not-so-proud to be one. I eat a lot, and I think a lot. I’m smart. I’m hardworking, though I’d disagree 🙂 I can’t decide what’s given to me. I can only shape my future and find a path in life that I am at peace with. It’s been a long long journey, and I’ve shared some of it with you. I think the time has come for me to change my ways. Maybe try to find a new way to live. Or a new path. Or a new form of expression. Who knows.
Good luck world.