So I can almost say I am provoked to blog about this.
You know I always wonder how Americanized I am and what are some of the differences that still exist.
One of them manifests itself in the most frustrating and tormenting of ways.
In my exam the grader made a wrong addition and gave me three extra points. And that bothers me. It bothers me a lot. I don’t go yesss I get three free points muhahahaha I am so happy. I was very stressed and torn. I don’t know what to do. To me, the noble and right thing to do was to return it to get it corrected. and I am going to do that.
I am very fazed by this issue. I care about my grades, and I care about my integrity. It’s not too bad for me to take more time to study and less time to break, and people make fun of me for that. People make fun of me for being honest, too. My friend said ‘That’s the dumbest thing ever.’ Imagine how I feel.
You guys might not understand, and may never will. You see I’m a very unique/weird/special/dumb/isolated/outcast/call-it-whatever-you-wanna-call-it. You might never find one even barely similar to me in your lifetime.
At this age of nineteen, I care a lot about religion, honesty, integrity and doing the right thing. I care a lot about my grades too. I live without needing much fun. I am depressed often, but life goes on. I haven’t met any other 19-year-olds like me.
To the friends I talked about, if you’re reading this, I told you because I wanted support that I badly need. I told you because I need reassurance that I need the right thing. No thanks to you for calling me dumb. Make fun of me all you want, but I am who I am. and I will continue to be so. Judge me if you want to – that’s your right. But I beg you to not judge, and be nice, because I still wanna be friends. If you don’t support me, please support me and don’t criticize me, because it’s tough enough to live my own life.
I feel like I come from a different world, living in a land where nobody feels nor acts like me. Sometimes, it’s very very depressing to be unique.
Hopefully, life moves on. again.