0106 – Numero Uno of 2009.

It’s amazing how it takes one loss to shatter confidence, but ten wins to restore it.


We’ve walked into 2009 after a horrible 2008. Some rejoiced, some don’t. I’m always the type who don’t feel that New Year has THAT much of a significance; it’s just another day, another moment, another time spent on this land. We humans create the concept of time ourselves, and we get so attached to it indeed. What happens if I make April the first month of the year? What happen if somebody revolutionized the concept of time and make one year lasts 36500 days?

It’s all our doing. What I celebrate are more of the natural sense. The trees, the landscapes, the moon, the skies, and the sea. The sea is one of the most beautiful creations on the earth. Went to the sea the day before and I can’t help but feel like just sitting there forever, away from the noises and blinding lights indicative of civilization. Now, I prefer not to delve into this issue, for it’s a New Year and I shall act like a normal human being for once 🙂


What I did for my New Year? Play bridge. lol. pathetic isn’t it? oh well. I was doing my university applications during Christmas.

People tell me that I don’t smile a lot. People tell me that I am quiet. People tell me that I’m a loner. I don’t know why I set up these barriers when I’m around people whom I’m not close to. It’s like the other side of me dominates in front of strangers, and the other side takes control during interactions with close friends. It’s weird really. I don’t really wanna be like that. I like to laugh and entertain people. I’ve been trying to remove that ‘barrier’, but to no avail. Is it so hard to chat in front of strangers? Why can’t I bring myself to it? I’ll just keep trying.


2 thoughts on “0106 – Numero Uno of 2009.

  1. girlspell January 1, 2009 / 4:39 am

    I’m so glad you posted! I want to wish you a healthy, happy New Year. I always like to see you post. So here’s to your studies and all the new things that will happen in 2009. All we can do is hope that it’s better

    • existentiallife January 1, 2009 / 4:41 am

      Thanks Rachel! You really reply fast huh 🙂 Happy New Year to you to!

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